It's amazing how something little & insignificant to a person, in some stage in life, can change his whole life!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That what she was to me........ Just a few weeks ago...
Now she is the world to me..................Why?

Why did this happen? How can this happen??

Why do I love her so damn much?
Why can't I close this chapter of my life & why do I keep hoping of this dream, which would never come true??

Why can't I ignore 1 human being on this planet & just notice the other 16 billon odd?
Why do I keep coming after her with a heartful of pure love & no ulterior motives AND knowing that i'm going to get hurt in the end?

Why did I fall in love, even without knowing who she really is? (without knowin her very well)
Does that mean that I don't love her for her???
THen what do I love her for?

Or else, does that mean I'm not in love?
It can't be lust!!!! These feelings I keep in this heart aren't dark at all
Just too bright & powerful that I can't even see myself, or anything else which looked wonderful to me then...
In that sense, love IS blind after all.....

Then again, Why her to start with? What's so damn special in her?
How did she do this to me?

Questions unanswered I lay here........... abandonded
Why does a pure love as this be wasted.......... for nothing
Causing harm for me & her, if it anyway mattered to her, what I go through & what I went through
in this short time, which feels like a decade to me......

Out of all the prettiest faces, it's hers which my heart bounded into. Why?

Not given the "official decision" of hers, I still hope for life after the "unofficial" series of sentences which sounded NO. I really shouldn't keep hope should I?

But, even I don't understand, HOW that very small element of hope can help me to survive my whole life!!!!!!!!!
It keeps me running, gives me hope & give me an enomerous amount of energy & happiness each & every day.

It's a part of my life now.......... & I feel I'm going to lose that part.
I would lose that very element which would do what she does.......... & I would miss that

Then again,would it really matter to her,
would she really remember, one day,
THat I loved her unconditionally, upon one very fine day,
& I would continue to do, for how long I really don't know......
Would she call for me? one day. At least for call this love for her, which is hers & hers alone
just to be loved

"Loving unconditonally!"... never knew it existed........................................................................
Thought it just was another lie by the perfectionists around us...
Well, now I know........ that, at least, something close to that exists.........
Defies all logic if you ask me.............In the end it's stupid..........., isn't it?